They decided to keep it off my formal record provided I did some community service and did not contact her anymore. The judge and prosecuting attorney in the court case seemed to understand there were two teenagers in a toxic relationship. Prior to the hearing, the prosecuting attorney took me into a back room and asked me some questions. It was clearly not a healthy relationship and it ended with me in court a year or so later facing harassment charges because I couldn't bear not being with her even though I still didn't like her. I didn't even like her, but I knew I could get some sexual gratification. I wasn't bothered though, because I heard of another girl from my neighborhood who was recently single because of her promiscuity. I was dumped by my first when I was 16 because I pressured her to go too far physically. I don't remember any pleasure, but somehow, I felt relief, especially when paired with the porn. I hadn't ever done that before, but one day when I was 14, I said to myself: "That's who they say I am, I guess that's who I am." So, I went home and did the deed. They joked that I just went home and masturbated every day. I don't know where it came from, but they openly called me "the masturbator". Kids sense insecurity and attack weakness I was a walking sack of self-pity. Neighborhood kids bullied me, and I served as the butt of a lot of their jokes. The first time I masturbated wasn't even pleasurable.
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